Ten days after surgery - I'm feeling splendid. I was almost in week 1 when I had the surgery, two days late even, and strangely enough, when I wake up from the anesthesia the brain fog was totally gone. So were all the feelings of being useless and worthless. There were complications, internal bleeding, so they had to rip me up and fix it on the very same day so I had to take antibiotics and lost a lot of blood, am probably still a bit anemic but am off the antibiotics and the nausea and headaches that they caused are gone. I wasn't supposed to start hrt until 10-14 days (risk of blood clotting) after the surgery but a couple of days I had my first hot flash. I still have Divigel, estradiol, 1mg so I've applied it once a day since. Today I've decided to apply it twice, already did this morning and will again tonight. I was prescribed Progynova estrogen 2mg but I think I'm going to ask for a divigel prescription as I don't like the idea of the stuff going through the stomach and liver and all that, I've heard there are bigger risks of side effects and all that. We'll see. The divigel is expensive, progynova not. Up until the surgery I was on 150mg Lamictal, 20 mg seroxat/paxil and 15 mg Mirtatzapine at night for sleeping. (Apart from bp med and Melatonine and a blood thinning med). I'm noticing that my brain is in overdrive and I knew that would happen so I've decreased the lamictal to 100mg and the seroxat to 10 and I haven't taken the Mirtatzapine every night either. The estrogen calms the overdrive and slight hypomania down and works wonders for my moods. There were some bad news as I'm suddenly not entitled to sick leave benefits anymore, I didn't get a panic attack and I wake up in the mornings with solutions to problems like I used to before my pmdd got as severe as it was before the surgery. Physically, well, I have almost no pain but still get pretty flustered and can't go out for long walks, it took me 20 mins to get to the store the day before yesterday, I usually walk there in seven minutes. But that's about it and that will pass very soon. All in all, I'm fine Only miss my dog but maybe in another week or so, and I know she's very well taken care of and doing just fine. Soooo, those of you who are determined to have a hysterectomy, I hope this gives you the drive and energy to keep fighting. Of course it might all backfire at some point, but for now it's all about starting hrt and adjusting meds and slowly getting back on my feet physically. I don't care if I drop dead in a week from now because now I truly see how bad pmdd is, to think of how I felt only two weeks ago, the comparison to that and to how I'm feeling today.... Scary shit and crap what you all are still living with. Oh, and as I've known all along, there are a range of weird physical symptoms that have gone worse with the pmdd. Now I feel like my bp and pulse are ok, haven't started monitoring them yet but still; my yeast is gone; the pain in my eye and neck, haven't had any, only at the hospital when they didn't believe the pain med they gave me didn't work for me. Stress and pain somewhere else always triggers the neurological pain, and probably pmdd in general somehow too. Soooo, something pmdd has something to do with autoimmune and your immune system crashes when pmdding @Eve... @Mia

status update via PMDD: It's Not Just PMS http://www.facebook.com/pages/p/547346038617411